Stop Blogging

You heard me. Stop blogging if your English is so perfectly screwed that you continue on shamlessly blogging! really? okay I'm not saying my english is legid and all but come on the grammar is like
HORROR!!!

I honestly think that blogger these days are trying too hard to gain popularity instead of actually having a good content in their writing.

isn't blogging about writing freely and expression of your soul being that it just releases your inner artistry? no? well maybe it's just me.

THESE PAST WEEK;

I joined some talent search competition and gained much experience to the point where it wasn't even about winning. However, it was remarkable how music brought so many people together.

Though I notice a good voice merely enough to enter the shortlist, it strucked me that I didn't like these kinda reality tv shit. Its bullshit honestly because some of the judges are just, well, I don't even know if they deserve to judge. Hence, it came to a point that I realize they weren't looking for a good singer.

They were looking for a star.

Admist of doing all these, I met so many amazing talented people. Met some nonsense party people aswell but no bad intentions implanted in em.

people never understood my point of views sometimes. But in under that cover of bimboness and craziness honestly, lies someone else.It's whether if you are willing to find em.

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They Say

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She runs and runs and runs, grasping upon something in the air as if she is holding a kite. She remembers how he use to say, "Fly a kite, not play a kite". Those words ring bells in her head, those haunting memories came by so sweetly when they used to held hands. She then turns back and look, and she sees an empty valley. She lets go of the invisible kite and stop. This time really looking behind her, she stares at the empty valley. Wandering, why issit that the valley is dry and dull? Why issit the dirt turns to dust? Why issit the sun does not shine upon this place yet the breeze is so spiteful and shy.

She closes her eyes and opens them again. She then stares into the mirror and finally understand , that empty valley is her. As she grasps upon the invisible kite,she was actually grasping onto a vain memory of hope and happiness that was lost when he walked out of her life.

She broke down and cried, tears seem to stream down, but the dry grounds quickly absorb those tears still leaving cracks on the dry dirt ground. No matter how hard she tries to cry it out, to feel better. Her scars remain the same, as the ground. Unable to heal, unable to forget, unable to take revenge.

How much does she love, till she gets hurt. How much does she suffer, to gain disapointment. How much care did she put into this, to end up of a disappearance of the one she loves. She turned over the side of her bed, and found a pair of big scissors for cutting cloth. Grabbed it with her shaking hands she stares at them, like they were giving her an answer. She wiped away her tears onto her pillow. Lay down on her bed again, and slowly....just slowly....took the scissors and said, " You took my heart away, and ripped it into fine pieces, without explanation you left, so without an explanantion, I shall leave aswell".

Her mother came into the room to wake her up, only to find her daughter laying cold and bloody on the bed. Tears still stream on her eyes. But a smile was upon her face as she leave this wild.

Cause Shes Got Pretty Eyes

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A guy asked me for a chance. He is a really good guy, even my classmate says so.

But I said no. My classmate asked me, WHYYY!??

I told her that simply I just see him as friend. Which is true, but also because lately theres someone else in the picture aswell.

I have a ghost in my life, he disappear from my life without an explanation. For two weeks or was it more? He went missing, promising me a good explanation to his disappearance. I waited, and waited, and pondered. Trying to get to him, but somehow he just runs away and continues to disappear. I thought to myself, Im not waiting anymore, so why are you running?

I lost my hope and then someone else comes along to tell me everything is okay. That he wouldnt do what you did to me. But how issit that you just creep into me and somehow tell me that I should still wait for you. urgh.

2 Weeks

It's been so long, where is that so called "explanation"?! that so called I will get to you soon, that so called I will meet you soon, that so called I'll call you soon?

Was it just a lie?

Are you running away from me cause you're bored of me?

Are you running away because you have certain issues? or was THAT also a lie.

Are you dissapearing because you found someone else that you get laid on?

Are you running away because you just ran back to your ex?

Are you even HAVING A PROBLEM!?

Is this who you really are? Manipulative, selfish, player?

Have you been playing me from the start?

Have you ever been true to me?

Am I your rebound?

Am I just a game to you?

Do you even care about me like you said you did?

These are the questions running through my head for the past two weeks that you went missing. Deep inside I'm defending you, saying that maybe you're in some deep shit. but part of me knows that you just don't want me anymore that you just don't care anymore. so why should I care? I don't even know myself.

it would be stupid to say that I dont care cause it's hard, to have someone that you're in love with disappear without any trace or what sort living you broken, dismented, fooled.

Who are you? more importantly Are You Alright? Because I try so hard to keep myself busy to not think of you.

holding onto a hope that you'd come back. Because everywhere I look somehow your shadows and your memories of us just come by. WTF. I hate myself. more importantly, I hate feeling this way.

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tuning to: The Fear by Lily Allen
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I Feel Like Dancing Tonight

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All Time Low

Shorty said she wants to run away,
says I look like a boy she used to date (Ha!).
Took me by the hand and pulled me to the stairs,
(I’m NOT interested, girl).

Put her tongue all up in my ear, (Gross!)
Almost made me spill my beer, (Oh Shit!)
She’s up and ready to go, but I don’t care.
(Pssh, whatever!)
Coz I’m in the zone,
turn off my phone, I've got my own agenda.

I feel like dancin' tonight,
I’m gonna party like it’s my civil right,
(everybody get kinda awesome).
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare,
because I feel like dancin' tonight.

[Alex laughing]
Everybody getting kind of crunk,
I think some dude just grabbed my junk, (Woah!)
Now I know how Ke$ha must be feelin’,
(Like.. what if we’re the aliens?)
Bros try to turn me upside down.
I put a keg tap to my mouth,
but that’s okay, I’m dancin’ on the ceiling.

Coz I’ve got the groove,
I’ll bust a move; just try and stop me.

I feel like dancin' tonight,
I’m gonna party like it’s my civil right,
(everybody get kinda awesome).
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare,
because I feel like dancing tonight.

Somebody call the police, (Woo-oooh)
I think they’re coming to get me,they said:
“You’ve got the right to remain on the dance floor,
so show us what you got 'cause you know that you got more.

I feel like dancin' tonight,
I came to party like it’s my civil right,
(everybody get kinda awesome).
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare, (Woah!)
'cause I feel like dancing tonight.

Oh, one more time,

I feel like dancin' tonight,
(I feel like dancin'…)
I’m gonna party like it’s my civil right, (Woooah)
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare,
'cause I feel like dancin' tonight (Oh, oh, oooh!)
I feel like dancin' tonight.
[Alex laughing]

THE END!

Jaz dyed her hair blue! Aquamarine!! :)

So How Could I Say No?

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Hello pretty mommah -Johny Bravo-

Omgosh, its 1am, what in the world is wrong with me? I have to be up at 8am tomorrow! =.=

It was suppose. SUPPOSE TO BE MY BREAK tomorrow, but I apparently I am on the creative team in my advertising class to redesign? draw? I dunno people. I sorta kinda finished my research homework, No my research is not done but I am well 20% on the way? Hmm

Im not tired somehow, though my original plan was to watch Vampire Diaries! EPIC PHAIL!

I found some lady having some sex phone conversation in the toilet just now. Well actually I didnt found her, Cheryl did. But gosh, I couldnt stop ease dropping aswell! buahaha.

Today was honestly a very cold and moody day, it was raining! Everyone was getting soaked and annoyed and moody. The day is JUST NOT GOOD, and for the fact that I continously feel cold is NOT a good thing people. Its even freezing without the fan! Anyways people, its late sleep tight, dont let the beg bugs bite. Oh wait, most of the people are already asleep. Hmm Well then SUGAR DREAMS! :)

ps: I just cant stop staring into your eyes <3

tuning to: I feel like dancing tonight by All Time Low.

Tapping Peoples Shoulder.

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Good morning people! Im actually in English Composition class right now....which I find really hilarious as I dont exactly feel like writing about a thesis statement. NOW.

I feel more like typing here and just randomly speaking my mind out for nuts. Yes. Nuts. Im bored ignore this randomness. KIMI STOP LOOKING ON MY SCREEN! BUAHAHAHA.

Kimi is so tempted to look at whatever shit Im actually typing onto my blog. WOW! My blog has the funniest nonsense you can find, trust me. Im actually worried these days for certain stuff, my assignments, projects and also my performance in the near future for a prom. Which up until now I havent had any sort of information at all about the details of the event. Well, I still dont know what I wanna perform to be perfectly honest. Its likes so stressful not to have any info on this, not even knowing any confirmation towards the matter.

YAY! Imma die in thesis statement or apparently FUNNEL INTRODUCTION. Dont ask me what is funnel introduction. GO GOOGLE. MADDAHAI. =.=

Im so excited though cause if I actually do perform for the prom I get to hang with my good friend. Angeline.

This is Angeline, shes my childhood friend, church member and our birthdays are just a day difference. Oh how we click so well, for what? A decade? Haha. I was excited and she was excited aswell, I hope that night would be an escape :) What the hell should I sing honestly!?
Okay perfectly honest now, Im so tired and I cant believe Im actually sitting here blogging instead of listening to this lecture. English Lecture, please do me good and not kill me. Im cold and annoyed and tired. DEAL. :) TEE HEE. Have to help Yip Chun and Vivian out for their assignments later. Tons of nonsense.

Breezy Dance

I actually looked out for bikes now, which is so ridiculous. I try not to look because I knew my decisions are always based on final assumptions. I've made my decision to help myself out, to give you your time and space and to also give me the space to grow and learn how to overcome this fear of losing and fear of being hurt.

it's okay now, I'm slowly adapting to your habits. I'm accepting the fact that you're just like this, and that it shouldn't be a big of a deal. obviously I'm upset just a little but its okay really. it's okay. I'm doing fine.

Because instead of constantly moping and waiting around I realize that I don't need to do all these. I don't need to call or text you because clearly you dont want to have any sort of contact at all. so it's fine that maybe you have your own shit going on and you have your own issues or maybe you decided to venture upon some other girl.

Who am I right? :)

No I'm not being sarcastic just the mere honest truth that I honestly don't bother waiting anymore and I dont bother circling you around my life. I'll wait but not how I used to wait, just so until you decide to appear I'd be glad to say hi to you knowing that youre safe and hopefully giving me the explanation I deserve. bless you bi.

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I Actually Fell For You

I had never admitted this but I actually fell for you. It was so hard for me to say "I love you" because deep down inside I'm thinking, you will leave me soon.

and perhaps my assumption is right anyways,
I actually found information about your past relationship,
No I'm not a stalker but I'm a pretty good one when I need to be babe,
I have a feeling that he'll read this,
I knew that he will find what I'm writing will be about him.

I honestly don't know you well enough,
and for the mere fact that you don't wanna share,
Lead me to find out otherwise,
Some false light has occur,
apparently you cheated, lie, hurt, and force in your past relationship,
I honestly don't choose to believe,
but then again who am I to you?

Up until now you haven't gave me an explanation,
could you blame me for doubting you?
For being afraid? for finding out things that may seem so real to me no matter how hard I try not to believe them?

I wanted an explanation but it's been almost a week,
where the fuck are you?
no calls, no text, no nothing.
I gave up trying to contact you because clearly,
You don't even Wanna talk or explain.

which one are lies? which one are truth?
I can never tell.
but I will only open my arms for you,
when you make the move.

I was the dude in almost every relationship,
I certainly dunwana be a lost puppy following you around,
I fell for you,
but it seems that it didn't matter to you anyways.

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How I Love Mummy (sometimes)

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As the post say so, YES sometimes I just love my mum cause she actually spends real quality time FOR me. Awww super love babies, super love.

ITS AMANDA BITCH!

I'm back on track, no more sad moppy Amanda. Today I realized how long it has ACTUALLY been since I last have a decent POST! I mean if you actually read my blog last time, it will be FILLED! and when I say filled I mean FILLED! WITH FUCKING AWESOME GAZILLIONS PHOTOS. And as I went through my photos I notice how many pictures I took, and I havent been able to post it anywhere. So owh why not?

Last Saturday, I had the best time in like.....such a long time. You can call this retail theraphy all you want! But I call this, relaxation baby. I havent been shopping AT ALL! And when mummy and I decided to head down to KL and shop around Bukit Bintang and Pavillion for the first time after like AGES! We had the best mother daughther quality time in years. So aside from shopping, my mum and I found time to actually bond just the two of us. Minus my dad because we didnt wanna wait around for his leg to ''heal'' and head home early because he was tired. Old people. tee hee

So now....as usual, from my usual posting format. (I didnt know I have a format but owh well) Here are some eye soaring....painfully...awesomely....acclaimed CAMWHORE QUEEN SKILLS.....

BRACE YOURSELF!

ITS ME!

This was actually after the shopping where we went to Hock Lee Village? Issit called that? Haha

I waited as my mum went to get some awesome yums!

So yeah I actually got this cool hoodie from of course....FOREVER21

Im just such a Forever 21 bitch! Im a Cotton On bitch aswell. haha.

The guy at the counter was actually such a dick (Cotton On Pavvi). He thinks I dont know anything or whatever product that comes to Cotton On, I mean hello? I actually like literally TOLD HIM OFF! Infront of my mum (which up till now I cant believe I said this infront of my mum)

" Excuse me, but I'm a Cotton On Bitch. I should know"

My mum didnt say anything, infact I think she was proud that I stood up for myself to that dickhole! BET HE IS ZE GHAY! Buahahah

Do I look Korean?

"No mummy, I did not notice your absence. I miss you though"

xp

I feel for this top and shorts. I got the shorts which is sooo

♥

Check it out! Im sparkly like Edward Cullen!

You can call me Bella now :) ♥

blah blah blah.

AND YOU THOUGHT THE CAMWHORING WILL END? HELL TO THE NO (tuning to: Hell To The No by Mercedes from Glee)

Omma's wantan mee soup is yums♥

OMMA!!! ♥

I couldnt eat! haha. These days my appetite is being a bitch having moodswings.

Hungry at odd hours, Full at odd hours aswell.

BITCH!

So after the shopping and makan, WE FINALLY WENT HOME! YAY! The jam in KL IS THE MOST FUCKTARD JAM I'VE BEEN IN SINCE MY TRIP TO BANGKOK!

owh wow you should really be in Bangkok and check out the shopping there! Its the heavens of shopping

♥ But the jam is like a bitch aswell!

So I went home and look what ring I found?!! no! Not the one with the cute thingy on top

The one on my right engagement finger! Aww a gift from Aaron my lovely ex.

My mum was like:

" Youre only wearing it after 3years?! why didnt you wear it earlier!? sho nice"

" Well mummy, you didnt like him anyway"

Come to think of it, she never likes any of my exes until the very end when everything ends. Buahahhaaha.

So here is Marcus.

He actually teman me this morning and watched me do my scamps for advertising class.

AND THEN HE TOLD ME!

you shouldn't be in MASS COMM!!

these drawings are me haha. using fairytales and concept of my likes and hobbies.

This character is repeatedly used because it represents me. :)

♥

Yes I drew all of it and I ♥ all of it buahaha

the end

(this is red riding hood btw)

ps: I officially let go

tuning to: Love Me by Justin Bieber