I Actually Fell For You

I had never admitted this but I actually fell for you. It was so hard for me to say "I love you" because deep down inside I'm thinking, you will leave me soon.

and perhaps my assumption is right anyways,
I actually found information about your past relationship,
No I'm not a stalker but I'm a pretty good one when I need to be babe,
I have a feeling that he'll read this,
I knew that he will find what I'm writing will be about him.

I honestly don't know you well enough,
and for the mere fact that you don't wanna share,
Lead me to find out otherwise,
Some false light has occur,
apparently you cheated, lie, hurt, and force in your past relationship,
I honestly don't choose to believe,
but then again who am I to you?

Up until now you haven't gave me an explanation,
could you blame me for doubting you?
For being afraid? for finding out things that may seem so real to me no matter how hard I try not to believe them?

I wanted an explanation but it's been almost a week,
where the fuck are you?
no calls, no text, no nothing.
I gave up trying to contact you because clearly,
You don't even Wanna talk or explain.

which one are lies? which one are truth?
I can never tell.
but I will only open my arms for you,
when you make the move.

I was the dude in almost every relationship,
I certainly dunwana be a lost puppy following you around,
I fell for you,
but it seems that it didn't matter to you anyways.

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