Current Days

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These pass few weeks was so frustating till I coulnt even concentrate on my studies. Sometimes I find comfort by talking to Joanna. Sometimes I even found comfort when I talk to just God alone. These days being in school is such struggle and frustation. I sometimes even wonder whats wrong with me because I just couldnt concentrate. Add maths seem slightly easier I guess for this year even Sejarah seems slightly more fun than boring. Issit just me? Or am I the only one that currently realise it?

Im somehow always frustated when it comes to certain subjects like Chemistry or Physics. Im even stuggling to make a decision on whether I should drop these subjects so that I burn my head off ( not like I dont already do).

Theres so much drama in school these days. And I cant belive I missed CF's Friendship Day video. Maybe I could just watch it online? Whats the difference right? I feel so depress.....things are so complicated these days in school. Best friends fight with good friends. People bitching about each other all the time.

And I thought I'd find peace these days. I guess not. Lemme tell you what I did these pass few weeks. Ive been getting complains by my parents saying that I dont study often, thats because I CANT. Its not that I dont want to but I havent been getting much sleep due to the fact that I keep having nightmares. Waking up 2am to 5am isnt a perfect way to start my day off as a student that was ready to get cheery and happy when it comes to studying ya know? I keep having nightmares. Una says maybe cos I laugh too much before I sleep. And I thought, when the heck could I even get the chance to laugh?? Crazy...

The worst part of it all is that all the nightmares are so realistic and violent till I couldnt even diffrenciate the difference between reality and nightmares. Restless much??

So hereis what happen last week:

I went out with my family on Sunday to shop for CNY at the Mid Valley and The Gardens but somehow rather it was fully packed till I could barely even make it into the fitting room. Its like queing for JCo donuts but maybe its even worst cos nobody tends to leave the place. They somehow are able and have the determanation to wait and take more clothes to try on in the fitting room. And there were only very little fitting room like maybe two fitting room. Crazy right?

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I dont understand why you must bring up stuff that has already passed so long eventhough YOU SAID IT WAS OKAY ALREADY. You had to make things complicated and bad. YOU hurt peoples feelings eventhough its not their fault. Seriously what the heck is your problem. If youre man enough to say its okay then come up to me and say that youre sorry cos honestly YOU were the one that was wrong eventhough I was the one that said sorry. Do you know how my respect for you just fall from 1 to -1000000. Youre so negative and I could never ever see you as someone that has balls. Youre a bastard that acts like a bitch because you seriously have no balls to even handle your own problem and yet you asked random strangers to come and lecture me. Have you ever thought why I did what I did? Seriously and I thought things were ''OK''. Fuck you la for saying everything is okay because youre just bullshitting. I cant belive you even brought this thing up . Please la, dont say that youre okay when you mmg like mm song me okay. I dont need your fake gratitude. And btw, I was being the bigger person by apologizing to you eventhough its so obvious that it was your fault. I fucking have no respect for you. Honestly go fuck yourself because you prove to the whole world that you need someone else to back you up for your stupid problems. What are you? 6? And btw, stop telling people the story when I didnt even tell. I was saving your face. If you think by telling your side of the story and making people belive that I was the bitch in story makes you the big fucking victim. Lemme lay it down for you that they havent heard my side of the story. Honestly, wait till they heard my side of the story. Lets see who will they side. And anyways, I already forgotten about it already and just when I thought things were cool between us, I seriously think that you owe me and apology now. So please dont keep blaming me that you made things this way.

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Hightlights for today:

My merentas number and Una's :) matching sial

I love you Darling.

She is sleeping infront of me now. Like a baby. Aww... xp

ps: CNY CNY CNY MONEY MONEY MONEY

pss: Stupid Ming Chang!

psss: Im ugly :)

tuning to:

'Network Card Digoreng'

I know I have been away for awhile, mainly because my network card got fried. You will be expecting me soon after my laptop gets fixed.

School has been a hectic-frenzied environment. Currently struggling with studies and overall its frustrating. I can't believe I can't study when exams are just around the corner. On the brighter side of things, my friendship has been growing stronger although I wish could turn back to 2008 when everything was fun and nothing was as worrisome as this.

CNY IS COMING SOON, CAN'T WAIT.
MONEY, MONEY, MONEY.

P.S : By any chance, is anyone organizing any open houses for CNY? Please call me!

Currently tuning into : Fireflies by Owl City.