I Dont Know If I'd Make It, But Watch How Good I Fake It

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Yours Truly

Its been ages...and when I mean ages, I MEAN AGE-GESS.....Yes please do detect the lameness and sarcasm in my post today.

Yes, today I shall talk about ''stuff'' on my blog just because I know no assholes would even read my blog. But ITS MY BLOG, I CANT WRITE WHATEVER I WANT TO, I CAN GO CRAZY, ILL LET IT ALL OUT! (currently tuning to: Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae. You can see the resemblance there)

Well, Im pretty depress now don't ask why Im planning to keep this secret to my happiness or maybe grave? Hmm... owh but wtf Imma talk about it anyways! ITS MY BLOG! Write Amanda! Write! (stupid..its Type not Write =.=)

So, today I will talk about one thing only. SHITTY FEELINGS! You know that kinda feeling whereby you feel REALLY EXTREMELY SHITTY! But you just cant do anything about it and you cant tell anyone but your really really close friends. Even so, they cant help you anyways, so youre practically at your doom. And to just FEEL this way and to continue on with your everyday life, you'd had to fake a smile and just pretend everything is okay.

You struggle everyday, you honestly just wanna go to bed cry it out and forget about it. But you'll wake up realising that it aint working anyways. You face your life the next day and everyone expects you to be this happy cheerful crazy person that you always are but you just seem to break down inside leading yourself to bad emotional mood swings that seems to get everyone taken aback.

Well, I dont know about you guys but thats how I feel. Sometimes, you feel like youre at the happiest spot you are then soon after you see the flaws in this spot of yours. Youre just miserable inside. I talked about this last time, the feeling you get when everything around it just colourful and youre just well...black and white. Its miserable, cause they expect you to be this glimmer and ball of sunshine which you naturally are. But sometimes every sun has a time to set and then slowly you realise the sun is actually lonely afterall.

I feel like that most of the blardy time, even when the sun has someone to love. In the end, you still feel alone and left out. You still feel like no one understands you.

THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST. (maybe) BUT IT SHALL NOT PULL EVERYONE DOWN! because its my blog lemme fend please. =.=

ps: I just feel like you don't need me at all, why are you even here?

tuning to: Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae