Aaron Fei

I found some old pictures of last year. I guess I preferred howd he looked like last year. He had the haircut that was in my favor, I loved it eventhough he hated it. He was always there for me, yes e fought ALOT. But you have to admit, he loves me like Im his lil sister. =/


I had never been as happy as last year. Yes, Im happy now but still not as happy as last year. Could time turn back? I rather take the tears, I rather argue with Aaron and still have all my seniors in school. I just wanna go back. Do you ever cry over it? Im so extreamely happy for Aaron. He is so great now with his current girlfriend Lydia. She is so pretty Im so happy for him. Trust me I seriously am.

Today I just talked to Fei made me realise that he didnt have my back anymore. He wasnt there for me like last time, not anymore, not ever, not even for a second. Eventhough, things had changed between us and of course we still care for each other. Its so hard....so so hard...for us to even talk as long as last time. Last time, he would call me for half an hour or more just listening to me...talking to me...hearing my cries...hear me laugh...and wait for me to fall asleep.

He would say '' Goodnight Honeydew'' or ''Goodnight Dear''
Then he would make sure Im fine. The next days of school, we would sometimes see each other. Sometimes not, but i hardly keep any attention on him most of the time. Infact, I ignored him badly. But one thing he always did that he never failed to not do, he would always be at the corridor whereby my class is at. After school, he would be there to just walk me across the bridge. Yes, does were the days Nooo....this isnt about me missing him as a lover. Its about me missing him as the person that had seen me grown bad, good, bratty, clingy, happy, sad and blah blah blah... xp


Im missing the guardian angel that was always there 24/7. Yes I have guardian angels now, but no one can beat him. Maybe Soong, but not anymore. I wished him his happiness with Lydia! xp




tuning to: River Flows In You by Yiruma